ok...so todaay i speak about ambition...what the hell is it??.....something we wan't to become...in life...in all perspectives...without a SECOND thought...or is it excelling in whatever we do...according to me,..the first option is more accurate...it is perhaps the 'by the book' definition....
i've been asked this question quite a number of times over the past year...."did you choose electrical??...do you like it??..."...and strangely enough i've found myself giving vague beat around the bush kind of answers.....everytime...i cannot lie blatantly...nor can i speak the absolute truth.....such is the society we live in...where you have to fear saying the truth to everybody lest.....whatever...
so lets speak about the truth....the truth is i don't like studying....forget choosing electrical...it was the only available seat in my rank...yes,i followed the crowd....the prospect of engineering doesn't 'naturally motivate' me...i really want to become a footballer....a goalkeeper to be precise and i know i will be good enough given a chance...but try saying this to one of my dad's colleagues who asks me this question and next day i'm slain...Oh suman!!!...grow up!!!.....i'm joking of course....but my parents would be hurt....and i would invariably see thier heads hanging down in deep thought contemplating my possibly doomed future.....
not for one moment will i blame my parents...am i contadicting myself...???..no..i'm not..our parents are entitled to thier worries...it is quite logical to do so in a world where surviving alone has become a challenge...so be it then...i accept...but it is system here that i am so fucked up with....and i'm sure a lot others are even they are not ready to admit...so now if anybody asks me about my ambition....i just say 'excelling in whatever i do'....smart as a whip...many would think....but what others wouldn't know is that i'm not sure i wan't to do what i am doing right now...but then i'm mature enough not to sit and brood on these thoughts....the world would not have time for such shit...whatever 'Ambition'...is nothing but a misnomer to me right now...and i'm sure a lot others as well if they are "BEING HONEST...." with themselves....cheeerio...all the best!!!
dts so lyk u 2 wryt dis thng ...nt a bad job yaar...kip it going ...
ReplyDeleteok...'being honest' indeed...first of all that was a really nice title u came up with, dude...really nice....yes u r rite we r all fucked by this system....sometimes it duz get tiring to lie to everyone...one does need a medium to let out his/her 'honest' feelings...bravo to u for doing this...it does take courage.....i do understand!
ReplyDeletegr8 thoughts dude!!neva knew u cn write soo wel!!!keep it up buddy!!:-)
ReplyDeleteWhen you would be lying on your death-bed, you should probably think about this....what you wanted to be...what you ended up being instead...all sort of these stuffs....coz you would have very little time to carry your grief..and hopefully that would be less painful!...
ReplyDeleteIf you are being honest....then its high time you pull up your socks...and chase your goal down...coz at the end of THE DAY...you're answerable to only person in the world, for your actions....and thats YOURSELF!
Otherwise....stop thinking about this bullshit you wrote..and think of the way of becoming an able "Electrical engineer"...coz this sudden struck of self-consciuousness will do no good for you!
well...its not a 'sudden struck self consciousness' as you say...its been with me ever since i stopped training...i just could not find a right forum to express it all this while..and i think i pointed out that i am mature enuf not to sit and brood on all this....but thanks all the same for being critical mate...it helps..what i've written may be bullshit...but it the truth down to the core...
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