New Year Resolution.

i would sit down often and wonder what my new year resolution would be....when i was sitting in my hotel room in Vellore.....and everytime i would sit to think about it i would resign even before i started thinking because i know i wouldn't follow it....point is,it is not so easy to fool your mind as aamir khan points out in 3 idiots...so i decided that i wouldn't have anything in particular...instead i would try to bring wholesome changes in the way i see certain things....for instance i came to know just now that there would be no football tournament this year....i am not dissapointed.....i was for a while but it's ok...football won't take me anywhere.....i have to study...in a better way...i read the book 'It's not about the bike'....ny Lance Armstrong few days back....i was ashamed.i have got to make something meaningful out of my life.....no point fooling around...i would not say it to anybody....i'll try.....and one more thing.....i am done pretending....i would not pretend anymore and if that ruffles a few feathers....so be it...i don't care....i am filled with pessimism now....i don't know why....perhaps the long session ahead......or the initial feelings you get in a hostel after a three month break.....i would just take a walk right now.....maybe things would get better.........