Ambition....

ok...so todaay i speak about ambition...what the hell is it??.....something we wan't to become...in life...in all perspectives...without a SECOND thought...or is it excelling in whatever we do...according to me,..the first option is more accurate...it is perhaps the 'by the book' definition....
i've been asked this question quite a number of times over the past year...."did you choose electrical??...do you like it??..."...and strangely enough i've found myself giving vague beat around the bush kind of answers.....everytime...i cannot lie blatantly...nor can i speak the absolute truth.....such is the society we live in...where you have to fear saying the truth to everybody lest.....whatever...
so lets speak about the truth....the truth is i don't like studying....forget choosing electrical...it was the only available seat in my rank...yes,i followed the crowd....the prospect of engineering doesn't 'naturally motivate' me...i really want to become a footballer....a goalkeeper to be precise and i know i will be good enough given a chance...but try saying this to one of my dad's colleagues who asks me this question and next day i'm slain...Oh suman!!!...grow up!!!.....i'm joking of course....but my parents would be hurt....and i would invariably see thier heads hanging down in deep thought contemplating my possibly doomed future.....
not for one moment will i blame my parents...am i contadicting myself...???..no..i'm not..our parents are entitled to thier worries...it is quite logical to do so in a world where surviving alone has become a challenge...so be it then...i accept...but it is system here that i am so fucked up with....and i'm sure a lot others are even they are not ready to admit...so now if anybody asks me about my ambition....i just say 'excelling in whatever i do'....smart as a whip...many would think....but what others wouldn't know is that i'm not sure i wan't to do what i am doing right now...but then i'm mature enough not to sit and brood on these thoughts....the world would not have time for such shit...whatever 'Ambition'...is nothing but a misnomer to me right now...and i'm sure a lot others as well if they are "BEING HONEST...." with themselves....cheeerio...all the best!!!

okay...starting off now....

hello everybody out there....considering this is my first blog post....i admit i don't know how or what to write in my blog....i am going to do full justice to my blog title...this is one place where i am going to be entirely honest....more with myself than with others...one of my best pals would be happy to see me writing here...well,no offense mate but had it not been my jaundice....i think
blogging would still have had to wait...
oh!!..my name...is Suman Biswas...by the way...that should be it...

starting off....