at the end of the day, all you have left is your principles and ideals. it's what has made you who you are.and over experiences, if you choose to let go of them,who do you have left with you?...no one. at least you can say you stood by something all along with pride. so, you choose to soldier on. man, i'm getting pretty good at this. not blogging, no, you idiots.i'm just tired of doing all the right things.wish my heart worked faster than my brain. i am never going to forget this month. for so many reasons. it's the " let go" month. and tomorrow is going to be the last United match i see at hostel. and then i know what i am going to do.i am going to be drunk. alcohol and weed.yeah.i will be stronger then on.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
IF YOU HAVE A DREAM, YOU GOTTA PROTECT IT.
What is the difference between ambition and dream ?....it's a question that has baffled me sometimes.i guess when you dream, you don't have to consider things, you just let your mind gallop and see where it reaches....and ambition, i guess maybe is a more serious, logical counterpart. i don't know, maybe.
Anyway, i'm bloggin again...atleast for a while. the last few days of anything where you have experienced constancy over a period of time makes you introspect.and i am no different.college life will be over in a little over a fortnight.it has been good, hectic at times,i don't really know how to put it.i guess college life has just been college life -- would be a good way to put it.i will write a post dedicated to my friends and so on once i am over with college so i'm not really going to cry here on how much i'm going to miss each one.nothing humans don't get used to.still, i believe i will cry pretty bad when i leave 225- my room at hostel and i won't be ashamed of it.lets get back to where i started.i remember my first post where i mentioned how i wanted to be a footballer and stuff.i stick to it.when i was in class 8 or 9 i pretty much realised that my dream of being a top notch sportsman would remain unfulfilled.in a small town such as asansol where there were absolutely no facilities or attitude to nurture this dream of mine,maybe i was a kid a tad bit too long.i had lots going on then already.those who know me well would know it.i am pretty used to dealing with things on my own,infact i'm pretty good at it.so i remember that fateful afternoon.i had to do the thinking part.i was going nowhere.i had screwed up my exams pretty bad.the semi annuals.and i wasn't going to become a sportsman either. haha . does sound funny right? well,i'll bet my ass it wasn't.i wasn't really good at anything else.so i sat down to think.i had two options.plain and simple.either play or start studying and forget that you were ever good at any sport.i chose the second.for a few days. as days wen't by i realised maybe i just loved the sport more than i wanted to be this ' Oliver Kahn ' of India. i made my decision.people living in towns, they quickly adapt,its an inborne quality.i realised i just had to play, not at the expense of studies,this time.so, i chose to soldier on,playing, as the opportunities presented itself,while focussing on my studies as much as i could.
Not a lot of people would say i did decent with my high school education.it just wasn't horrible.i got in here,my college.i took up table tennis more seriously,as individual sport is far easy to pursue.today, i'm placed in Infosys, no big deal allright,but not to be sneezed at either and i have repped my college in TT, Football..i have won my college podium finishes in a national level event...i have competed in the district championships..where i did not do too bad and if not for politics i probably would have represented ASN- DGP in the Sate trials.now do i regret that did not become the STAR i dreamt to be? no. i don't. not a bit.i had my dream intact. it just got modified in a logical way.yes, it hasn't been easy.there have been days where i just wanted to give up, smash my racquet, and have a joint to celebrate.but i've resisted, patiently waited for the phase to get over.i've walked 6 kms in the blazing sun thrice a week to my academy until now,where most others have been doing far more attractive things.yes, i made sacrifices, and i'm not exaggerating one bit, to keep my dream going,and i'm proud of it.Sport has made me who i am,it hs shaped me as an individual.yes, there's probably a couple of things in my life i wanted to pan out differently than it did, but its all good.
There's a long career ahead of me. a fresh start. i have to be good at what i do.be it my job or a management degree.and it will be my first priority. my dream will still be there with me, and i will keep on playing, trying to improve and get closer, to be a star... to the world? no...to myself.at the end of this 22 years of eventful life, i've figured out what i wan't...at the end of the day i wan't to be satisfied, happy.you don't really really make money for anything else,in the broader perspective.do i regret that i couldn't start off with a higher paycheque?...no, not anymore.yes, there will be days, when i might think on those lines, but i already have an answer.no again.i'll build from what i have.it has been a feature of my life, and so be it. now,when i ponder about the difference between dream and ambition,(and you might as well differ,of course), the answer doesn't look so hard,no?
NEVER LET GO OF YOUR DREAMS.IT MIGHT BE CRAZY, STUPID, BUT WELL, IF YOU WERE CRAZY AND STUPID ENOUGH TO DREAM IT ONE DAY, IN YOUR OWN CRAZY AND STUPID WAY YOU WILL FIND A WAY TO PROTECT IT TOO.IT'S NEVER TOO LATE.
Anyway, i'm bloggin again...atleast for a while. the last few days of anything where you have experienced constancy over a period of time makes you introspect.and i am no different.college life will be over in a little over a fortnight.it has been good, hectic at times,i don't really know how to put it.i guess college life has just been college life -- would be a good way to put it.i will write a post dedicated to my friends and so on once i am over with college so i'm not really going to cry here on how much i'm going to miss each one.nothing humans don't get used to.still, i believe i will cry pretty bad when i leave 225- my room at hostel and i won't be ashamed of it.lets get back to where i started.i remember my first post where i mentioned how i wanted to be a footballer and stuff.i stick to it.when i was in class 8 or 9 i pretty much realised that my dream of being a top notch sportsman would remain unfulfilled.in a small town such as asansol where there were absolutely no facilities or attitude to nurture this dream of mine,maybe i was a kid a tad bit too long.i had lots going on then already.those who know me well would know it.i am pretty used to dealing with things on my own,infact i'm pretty good at it.so i remember that fateful afternoon.i had to do the thinking part.i was going nowhere.i had screwed up my exams pretty bad.the semi annuals.and i wasn't going to become a sportsman either. haha . does sound funny right? well,i'll bet my ass it wasn't.i wasn't really good at anything else.so i sat down to think.i had two options.plain and simple.either play or start studying and forget that you were ever good at any sport.i chose the second.for a few days. as days wen't by i realised maybe i just loved the sport more than i wanted to be this ' Oliver Kahn ' of India. i made my decision.people living in towns, they quickly adapt,its an inborne quality.i realised i just had to play, not at the expense of studies,this time.so, i chose to soldier on,playing, as the opportunities presented itself,while focussing on my studies as much as i could.
Not a lot of people would say i did decent with my high school education.it just wasn't horrible.i got in here,my college.i took up table tennis more seriously,as individual sport is far easy to pursue.today, i'm placed in Infosys, no big deal allright,but not to be sneezed at either and i have repped my college in TT, Football..i have won my college podium finishes in a national level event...i have competed in the district championships..where i did not do too bad and if not for politics i probably would have represented ASN- DGP in the Sate trials.now do i regret that did not become the STAR i dreamt to be? no. i don't. not a bit.i had my dream intact. it just got modified in a logical way.yes, it hasn't been easy.there have been days where i just wanted to give up, smash my racquet, and have a joint to celebrate.but i've resisted, patiently waited for the phase to get over.i've walked 6 kms in the blazing sun thrice a week to my academy until now,where most others have been doing far more attractive things.yes, i made sacrifices, and i'm not exaggerating one bit, to keep my dream going,and i'm proud of it.Sport has made me who i am,it hs shaped me as an individual.yes, there's probably a couple of things in my life i wanted to pan out differently than it did, but its all good.
There's a long career ahead of me. a fresh start. i have to be good at what i do.be it my job or a management degree.and it will be my first priority. my dream will still be there with me, and i will keep on playing, trying to improve and get closer, to be a star... to the world? no...to myself.at the end of this 22 years of eventful life, i've figured out what i wan't...at the end of the day i wan't to be satisfied, happy.you don't really really make money for anything else,in the broader perspective.do i regret that i couldn't start off with a higher paycheque?...no, not anymore.yes, there will be days, when i might think on those lines, but i already have an answer.no again.i'll build from what i have.it has been a feature of my life, and so be it. now,when i ponder about the difference between dream and ambition,(and you might as well differ,of course), the answer doesn't look so hard,no?
NEVER LET GO OF YOUR DREAMS.IT MIGHT BE CRAZY, STUPID, BUT WELL, IF YOU WERE CRAZY AND STUPID ENOUGH TO DREAM IT ONE DAY, IN YOUR OWN CRAZY AND STUPID WAY YOU WILL FIND A WAY TO PROTECT IT TOO.IT'S NEVER TOO LATE.
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