regret......

God...the sem has been horrible...setback after setback...trust broken...it's getting real tough now.i wouldn't even try and elaborate anything....it's just that i don't care anymore.blogging is seeming tiresome now and unless i feel like writing someday as today....i won't write.maybe i could have made the cut for the 6 member table tennis team to the sports fest in ism,dhanbad.....even though i never deserved it.my parents,as usual played spoilsport.it was just a week of missed classes and labs,which are insignificant anyway.i regret now that my dad took me to the field when i was a kid......guess it would have been easier if i were a bookworm and useless at anything else.....college sucks like anything and i loathe the place.....not my hostel though.....i have a strong urge to defaecatate everytime i reach the cursed place.....life's good........really......

resolution....

i have lost interest to write.it has been a gaming month in my college.i am the best FIFA player in hostel but nowhere near the best in college.....and these premature exits from the tournaments of things i love doing is killing me.


i won't write as i said.i have just set 4 basic goals for myself.....long term ones for a change..by the time i leave college i need to be the best table tennis player,the best goalkeeper, and the best FIFA 09 player in my college.....and i need a decent job too.i won't waste my time trying other sports.it's too late.i won't settle for anything but a first spot in the first 3 things.atleast i need something where i cannot be talked down to or out skilled by others.it's damn fucking important for me.