here i am again...2am in the morning..jobless as ever, sitting and writing a post.Much to the irritation of a few of my friends, i have stopped writing, like, really.
As i approach to the almost penultimate full month of my college life,i can only sit back and gaze, as i was absently gazing at the green shaded wall of my room moments ago.Not so long ago,i remember typing a post about school,what it meant to me,how it shaped me as an individual and how much i missed it.And before i could really get over it and understand what the hell was going on,i've reached the twilight of my college life as well.It's strange.Time flies,or wait,it just doesn't fly,it rockets past us like a supersonic jet making it's presence felt long after it's gone. College,in all, has been just college. Neither good, nor bad.Hostel has been fantastic to me.All my friends there and very few localites.Thoughts have changed, so has my perceptions,of things,philosophies,people etc.I always maintained i was never going to miss college.I admit i was wrong.People have changed over the four years,so i thing it's almost human for me to make some false assumptions.College will be missed,big time.
looking back, the has been a sense of completion in college, barring the possibilty of course that i fail in any of my 8th semester subjects.People who i care about love me,good.Some hate me,even better.as far as sports is concerned i did what i could and i gave whatever i could to college.I've had ok grades.I have a not-to-be-sneezed-at job too.And few things,here and there.On a whole,if you aksed me,if i planned to do something more before i joined college i would say no.If college has changed any of my ideals,i would like to be an individual who makes a difference,in any respect,no matter how small it is.
people change.and they return to give you explantions about things for which apparently you don't care anymore.What college life has definately taught me,sometimes the hard way,is that much contrary to the general belief -- people will always tend to mistrust and doubt you, unless you provide them sufficient reason not to do so.My love life is a farce.Unless some pandora's box opens and i'm suddenly convinced,(here i am still leaving that slight hole for the ray of hope to pass through...i'm such a lousy douche), i think i'm totally ready to start with a clean slate and meet a lot of new people.for a self-obsessed human being like me,it's difficult to find a girl,unless she were a bit of a nutterhead too.
I'm feeling sleepy.It's just a couple of months more,then it's curtains to student life.Life has been life and it has come a long way.I'd like to think i've come full circle...and desperately, i want to tie up all the loose ends in whatever time left.No grudges, no carry on's...just wrap things up,keep the 22 years safely aside, and start on a new page.it's what i will be aiming to do.My next post will probably be when i'm at INFOSYS,blabbing shit about my boss.only time will tell.what are you looking at? GET LOST.
