Summer break.

hi,my non-existent readers,hope you are doing fine.there are a lot of topics to write on,so i am going to do justice to all.

1.Training - i am a certified NTPC trainee now.'life in a metro' was terrific,and the fast and busy life really catches you.i still hate kolkata though.before i joined college,i often wondered how my college life would be.sucking,as college always is,probably,till now i have done everything i could have hoped for.a terrific hostel group,staying over at my roommate's place in delhi for a month training or no,improvement in table tennis and goalkeeping,and finally as i realised in the past month or so,i've found a soulmate in college.according to a friend of mine,"you get friends in college,not soulmates".well,i think,as of now,i have one.

2.World Cup - sub-standard,if not pathetic.sepp blatter would be laughing his ass of to have made more profit in this edition than the combined previous two,but football is in for a change.physical and tactical european style is taking over.the supremacy of european leagues attests the fact.spain had thier share of luck but so did every world cup winner.supporting england is a nightmare,but abandoning my favourite club or country is not me.lampard's goal allowed,and i believe the germans,brilliant as they were,would have found it difficult to stop the english juggernaut.

looks like i am halfway through college life,even before i realised it.i've grown,in many ways.but the weird thing is,i hate college.i would miss hostel,all my pals there,but college definately,is something i would not miss.i am playing table tennis 3 hours a day now,and the 4 month gap has made me rusty.i am playing lazy and sooner or later,i really need to work out.the prospect of going back to college is tiring,but so is life,and it is something i have to get used to,if i haven't already.........

Ronaldo or Messi?

no question these two are the greatest players at present.men who have changed games on their heads innumerable times for thier respective clubs in unmatchable fashion,paving thier way to unquestionable glory.so without beating around the bush i leapfrog to the debate,if there is one at all,on who's better.....THE little Argentine or THE man with the wink.

okay...bunk it....slamdunk...ronaldo is better...and by miles if not light years.messi has some distance to go.messi die-hard's would probably gangrape me.let's start with messi...he's got talent,skill,pace and with age by his side,all the ingredients to become possibly the best the world has ever seen....i would be a fool to deny it and even if i wanted to,i can't.but just look at the support the man has got...xavi,iniesta,abidal,yaya toure and upfront he's had eto'o and henry ....and he's got henry and ibrahamovic now to feed...possibly the best central defenders in the world and supported by two serious world class,top quality strikers...messi is good,even better with the team he's got.no wonder he's devoted his career to a club which paid for his hormonal treatment...messi is pure latin football...sleek pass dependent,not the most physical player you would see...the penetrating through balls from xavi and iniesta which more often than not finds him with only the goalkeeper at mercy.his finishing is immaculate...otherwise the debate would not have started.i don't remember messi physically overcoming a stiff challenge and powering a header in....or hitting free kicks with GOD-like consistency....his game is one dimensional...skillful no doubt..but tell you what put him in the Manchester United squad right now and he would struggle to score 20 goals a season...let alone 42.his game and style of football suits the Catalans and vice-versa.....and relax you messi whores...he's just a couple of seasons old.

now ronaldo....now the first thing about him is people question his commitment or ethics just by looking at him....his face.for the record he hasn't missed a single training session ever since he joined the RED DEVILS.....so no question about his devotion to the game.he got spotted at lisbon,came over to Manchester,conquered England and then he spotted Madrid...he's the champ...i'm not going to talk about his pace or skill....you would not even have to type the whole word in youtube and ample proof lies there.people say he's selfish...exactly....and that is what his opponents feared most...not his pace or skill....his ruthlessness,his carefree attitude with which he dessimated opponents....he could have had 20 shots off target in a match and nobody would dare look him in the eye....he had the aura of a champion...the reason i quite liked the champion australia cricket squad...teams were half done before the actually felt the turf.he would do what others would dream of...great players aren't afraid to try new things....he's an apt example....free kicks,headers,crosses,long range efforts,solo goals,one on one's....he mastered all...apart from best goalkeeper and best defender,i think he won everything.....he had good support but nothing world class....come on,he's conquered a league and here's a fact...he has had more shots on target in the la liga despite injuries than a certain lionel messi...i believe ronaldinho at his peak was better than messi as was thierry henry during his golden days with the Gunners....ronaldo has terrified all top clubs and has definately set a benchmark.he has conquered a league and has moved on to the next one.only time will tell.....but he's definately got better allround prowess than messi.




another tingling conflict in my blank mind....i think mourinho is the better coach.ferguson is the unbelievably close runner up....but portuguese,english,italian....three completely different styles of football...maybe that just gave jose the edge.....look who the judge is anyway.....another couple of hours without books....what the heck....

21st B'day.........

today is supposed to my birthday.....i never had such a birthday....b'days are somehow nothing special for me.....i figure it out as a day when i was just born.from childhood my birthdays have been pretty normal...so celebrations or extravagant costly gifts are odd for me....but you learn as you go in life.

this time around....i happened to be in hostel,my first home now...as it happened..twelve...and i got birthday bumps....rather hard ones that my ass is sore now.....but i loved it....i felt good with friends around me....so many hugging me....never had so many hugs before.....i also cut a simple cake and had chips and soft drinks...danced to trash music...with my friends and couple of others who also happened to come to earth on the same day....nothing costly,rich or cool about it.....just that at the end of it all i was happy....not feeling left out,isolated...my roommate,and other close friends were very much there allowing me to savour such moments.it's weird....so many of the guys i didn't care much about....maybe even in future i won't made my 21st birthday so special and someone i cared for most in college or even now i do....did not even wish me the entire day...you learn everyday and guess i have figured something out now....a big THANK YOU to everybody around me....you people rock and are fantastic.....!!!!!!


the song 'guilty' is on repeat in my laptop......"if loving you with all my heart's a crime.......and i'm guilty.".........

regret......

God...the sem has been horrible...setback after setback...trust broken...it's getting real tough now.i wouldn't even try and elaborate anything....it's just that i don't care anymore.blogging is seeming tiresome now and unless i feel like writing someday as today....i won't write.maybe i could have made the cut for the 6 member table tennis team to the sports fest in ism,dhanbad.....even though i never deserved it.my parents,as usual played spoilsport.it was just a week of missed classes and labs,which are insignificant anyway.i regret now that my dad took me to the field when i was a kid......guess it would have been easier if i were a bookworm and useless at anything else.....college sucks like anything and i loathe the place.....not my hostel though.....i have a strong urge to defaecatate everytime i reach the cursed place.....life's good........really......

resolution....

i have lost interest to write.it has been a gaming month in my college.i am the best FIFA player in hostel but nowhere near the best in college.....and these premature exits from the tournaments of things i love doing is killing me.


i won't write as i said.i have just set 4 basic goals for myself.....long term ones for a change..by the time i leave college i need to be the best table tennis player,the best goalkeeper, and the best FIFA 09 player in my college.....and i need a decent job too.i won't waste my time trying other sports.it's too late.i won't settle for anything but a first spot in the first 3 things.atleast i need something where i cannot be talked down to or out skilled by others.it's damn fucking important for me.

Reality Check.

i am really feeling like shit.i thought i was quite good at table tennis.i got a pretty rough reality check....i lost the singles and the doubles....both first round exits.i just need to improve,its as simple as that.i was circumspect and i thought of the after effects than concentrating and playing my natural game....i messed up with the smashes and just tried to keep the ball in rather than dictating terms and going for winners....which i would countlessly do in practise.in short,i lacked match temperament.i'll have to improve my game.



i played my second full field football match....this semester and i was feeling confident and good under the bars.i only conceded an own goal.i registered for FIFA 07 in our tech fest....i'm undefeated in hostel but they say the NIT's are something out of the book.lets see..........

MY NAME IS KHAN.

i am disgusted.....absolutely mega pissed off.i just wrote down my post for an hour and it has not been autosaved.techniocal glitches sala.anyway,so my post will become shorter.i watched MY NAME IS KHAN today and it was below my expectations.shahrukh acted like shahrukh and there was nothing extraordinary about it.the message was pretty plain and simple and it has been enacted before.it's unfair to compare this movie with 3 idiots as they have completely different story lines,but entertainment wise 3 idiots ramks much higher than this latest shahrukh khan flick.shahrukh kajol reunion was the spark in the movie and i think it was okay.i watched the second day second show and it did not have me rewinding the scenes time and again as 3 idiots did.however,i feel the movie made a perfect timing with the pot boiling over india australia rascist issues.....though i speak as a layman.these things perhaps don't affect bureaucratic and political relationships between nations.however i have a couple of friends who have dealt with these anti-muslim issues in life and maybe that has had me probing....however life recent has taught me not to probe much.


tomorrow is Valentine's day.curse the saint,really.i'm going back home for a day on a day when people of my age usually spend more time away from home.i just wish there had been a day when couples would stay inside and all single people would have a blast outside and really rejoice being single.bull's crap.........thats the first expression that occured to me.



our college has suddenly become lively..we just concluded our e week.it had a lot of activities.i auditioned the roadies part and it was fun.we also organised a small scale gaming competition which was a success of sorts.cricket tournament just got over while my wait for the football tournament continues.............we are also having near daily lan sessions in hostel.our group has also started designing posters for our fest.i had a near 3 hour table tennis practise one day and i haven't lost touch.we should have full field football matches tuesday onwards so i can really do some goalkeeping now.also we are planning to go to the ethical hacking workshop in ISM,dhanbad.hacking sure sounds fancy and it would be an interesting venture ahead....it's a busy schedule ahead....and i really need to open my text today....it's useless pre deciding in hostel but aal izz well i guess!!!!